Sunday, November 16, 2008

"Dive" by Andrea Gibson





I first heard this poem a few years ago when a friend saw her perform live. Recently I felt the urge to hear it again as it is SOOOOOOO powerful. It still gives me goosebumps. I love the message, the delivery, everything is spot on. Andrea Gibson is a super-talented lesbian slam poet and writer. She is awe-inspiring. The way she outlines the paradox that is life is truly genius. Life doesn't rhyme. I wish I could write a lot more on this topic, but I'm dog-tired and don't have it in me. Maybe soon.......

Below are the words - but it REALLY is best heard, so watch the video. I bolded some of the lines I really dig:


i often repeat myself and the second time's a lie


i love you


i love you


see what i mean i don't...


and i do


and i'm not talking about a girl i might be kissing on

i'm talking about this world i'm blissing on and hating at the exact same time


see life doesn't rhyme


it's bullets...and wind chimes


it's lynchings...and birthday parties


it's the rope that ties the noose


and the rope that hangs the backyard swing


it's a boy about to take his life and with the knife to his wrist


he's thinking of only two things: his father's fist and his mother's kiss


and he can't stop crying


it's wanting tonight to speak the most honest poem i've ever spoken in my life


not knowing if that poem should bring you closer to living or dying


drowning of flying cause life doesn't rhyme


last night i prayed myself to sleep


woke this morning to find god's obituary scrolled in tears on my sheets


then walked outside to hear my neighbor


erasing ten thousand years of hard labor


with a single note of his violin and the sound of the traffic rang like a hymn


as the holiest leaf of autumn fell from a plastic tree


beautiful ---and ugly


like right now i'm needing nothing more than for you to hug me



and if you do i'm gonna scream like a caged bird


see...life doesn't rhyme


sometimes love is a vulgar word


sometimes hate calls itself peace


on the nightly news i've heard saints preaching truths


that would have burned me at the stake


i've heard poets tellin lies that made me believe in heaven


sometimes i imagine hitler at seven years old


a paint brush in his hand at school


thinkin what color should i paint my soul


sometimes i remember myself with track marks on my tongue


from shooting up convictions that would have hung innocent men from trees


have you ever seen a mother falling to her knees


the day her son dies in a war she voted for


can you imagine how many gay teen-age lives were saved


the day matthew shepherd died


could there have been anything louder


than the noise inside his father's head


when he begged the jury


please don't take the lives of the men


who turned my son's skull to powder


and i know nothing would make my family prouder

than giving up everything i believe in


still nothing keeps me believing


like the sound of my mother breathing


life doesn't rhyme



it's tasting your rapist's breath on the neck of a woman who loves you more


than anyone has loved you before


then feeling holy as jesus



beneath the hands of a one night stand



who's calling somebody else's name



it's you never feelin more greedy



than when you're handing out dollars to the needy



it's my not eating meat for the last seven years


then seeing the kindest eyes i've ever seen in my life


on the face a man with a branding iron in his hand


and a beat down baby calf wailing at his feet


it's choking on your beliefs


it's your worst sin saving your fucking life


it's the devil's knife carving holes into your soul

so angels will have a place to make their way inside


life doesn't rhyme


still life is poetry --- not math


all the world's a stage but the stage is a meditation mat


you tilt your head back you breathe when your heart is broken


you plant seeds in the cracks and you pray for rain


and you teach your sons and daughters



there are sharks in the water



but the only way to survive



is to breathe deep and



dive.




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